她都說她很愛我
可是我不知道到底是愛我還是愛自己
我就像她的寵物一樣
隨傳隨到
我可以容忍他犯錯
她犯錯我都跟她說沒關係也不會罵她
但是只要我犯錯她一定很生氣的罵我
她跟其他男生玩在一起我都不會對她怎樣
但是只要我跟女生有說有笑的聊天他一定很生氣
她總是說她對我要求這麼多我也應該要求她才對
可是我做不到
我沒辦法要求我的另一半不准跟其他男生互動
我沒辦法要求我的另一半出來陪我即使明天有考試或者身體不舒服
我覺得那樣太自私了
我自己認為
愛一個人就是要去支持他的夢想
她跟我說她以後想開餐廳
我都跟她說我一定會支持她
我覺得
就是因為愛她
所以不管她想做什麼
只要是對她好的
不用管我的感受
因為我一定支持她
不管他要往哪走
我一定會在她後面默默的保護她
也許是對愛情的幻想破滅吧
我一直以為愛一個人就應該要為她著想
但是顯然我們兩人的想法差異很大
常常有人跟我說要溝通
但是事實上這些事情他全部都知道
當她平常心的時候她都很知道這些事
但是只要她脾氣一來她就會完全失去理智
例如她常常跟我抱怨她跟室友吵架室友就說她想死不想活了
她覺得很討厭
我也都跟她說用自己生命來威脅別人是件很缺德的事情
但是每次我跟我女友吵架她也都會跟我說她想去死
我都不知道怎麼跟她講
我都不知道要怎麼面對她
她會一直跟我道歉要我原諒她
她說她會改
可是事實上同樣的問題一直發生
昨天講電話她一口氣把我過去的傷疤全部捅出來
讓我覺得我的心在淌血
然後又跟我說對不起
不知道要怎麼面對她
2011年1月13日 星期四
卡夫卡的陰影
有天早晨起來，格里高發現自己變成一隻巨大的甲蟲........
卡夫卡的陰影陰魂不散!!
每次都對著學弟妹們說
雖然路途辛苦
但是最後是甜美的果實
但事實是
最想放棄的人是我
一切的一切
都是為了理想和目標
即使如此仍然停下腳步貢獻自己的心力
只要求自己在這一切結束後要步回正軌
從不覺得自己是最辛苦的
也不要求什麼回報
也不奢望有人會來關心
可是大家卻認為自己是最大的受害者
我還要去安慰其他人說
沒關係一切都交給我我會幫你的你好好休息吧
那我給誰安慰?
如同變成甲蟲的格里高一樣
不能言語
不能傾訴自己的痛苦
起初大家還是把你當人
等到他們覺得你終究只是隻甲蟲時
他們便唾棄你遺棄你
最後把你已喪失靈魂的軀體掃去丟掉
到底何時才能結束這一切?
到底什麼時候你們才肯把我這只無用的甲蟲丟掉?
實在是太可笑了
一切都是如此的可笑
荒謬.........
卡夫卡的陰影陰魂不散!!
每次都對著學弟妹們說
雖然路途辛苦
但是最後是甜美的果實
但事實是
最想放棄的人是我
一切的一切
都是為了理想和目標
即使如此仍然停下腳步貢獻自己的心力
只要求自己在這一切結束後要步回正軌
從不覺得自己是最辛苦的
也不要求什麼回報
也不奢望有人會來關心
可是大家卻認為自己是最大的受害者
我還要去安慰其他人說
沒關係一切都交給我我會幫你的你好好休息吧
那我給誰安慰?
如同變成甲蟲的格里高一樣
不能言語
不能傾訴自己的痛苦
起初大家還是把你當人
等到他們覺得你終究只是隻甲蟲時
他們便唾棄你遺棄你
最後把你已喪失靈魂的軀體掃去丟掉
到底何時才能結束這一切?
到底什麼時候你們才肯把我這只無用的甲蟲丟掉?
實在是太可笑了
一切都是如此的可笑
荒謬.........
2010年10月31日 星期日
Linkin Park - The Catalyst
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No...
And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
Oh...
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky
God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hands
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our fathers
The sins of our young
No
God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hands
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our fathers
The sins of our young
No...
And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light
God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
Oh...
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky
Lift me up
Let me go
Lift me up
Let me go%09
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
No...
And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
Oh...
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky
God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hands
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our fathers
The sins of our young
No
God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
For the sins of our hands
The sins of our tongue
The sins of our fathers
The sins of our young
No...
And when I close my eyes tonight
To symphonies of blinding light
God save us everyone
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns
Oh...
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky
Like memories in cold decay
Transmissions echoing away
Far from the world of you and I
Where oceans bleed into the sky
Lift me up
Let me go
Lift me up
Let me go%09
God bless us everyone
We're a broken people living under a loaded gun
And it can't be outfought
It can't be outdone
It can't be outmatched
It can't be outrun
2010年10月18日 星期一
Linkin Park -Waiting for the end
This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Cuz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear.
Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....
Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts we're spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/waiting-for-the-end-lyrics-linkin-park.html ]
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...
This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)
We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Coz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and th fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Cuz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear.
Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....
Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts we're spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...
(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/waiting-for-the-end-lyrics-linkin-park.html ]
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got
What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...
This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em
(Holding on to what i haven't got)
We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Coz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and th fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear
(Holding on to what i haven't got!)
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