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2012年5月31日 星期四

吐完過後

今天早上起來就覺得胃很不舒服
教學實習上到一半就跑去廁所吐
感覺我的胃很生氣的在跟我抗議
我的胃用力的把通西往我的嘴巴拋出來
還好我很機警先去廁所等沒吐在教室裡
最後還吐了一點血
看到馬桶裡的血
我才發覺
原來我還活著
過去這一個月我就像殭屍一樣行屍走肉
看到我這樣虐待我自己
第一次深刻的體會到我活著的價值
我不能在這樣喝酒下去
我必須充實的過每一天

2012年5月30日 星期三

5/31

今天把伏特嘉全不喝完
連站都站不穩
打字也野一堆錯字
還滿爽的
結果一回宿舍把皮包放在書架上書價就垮了
果然平常看太多書的場
這就叫做壓垮駱駝得罪吼一保草麻

loves you lately

You packed your last two bags. A taxi's 'round the bend.

You used to laugh out loud, But you can't remember when.

You lost your lies. It's like your moving out of time,

And the whole world crumbles right beneath you.



So, I might've made a few mistakes,

But that was back when you would smile,

And we would go everywhere,

But we ain't been there for awhile.

And this I know, There's a place that we can go-

A place where I can finally let you know.



'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.

You and me, we got this great thing.

We're the only ones that around,

We're the only ones that around this Babylon.





I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for.

Just remember where you're from and who you are,

'Cause there's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new,

But if you ever lose your way, I'll leave one on for you.



'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.

You and me, we got this great thing.

So, come back, get here, sit down. Relax.

Everything's to see that you've come a long, long way,

And it's the place that you should be.



'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.

You and me, we got this great thing.

'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.

You and me, we got this great thing.

We're the only ones that around this Babylon.

2012年5月28日 星期一

All Out of Love

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone

Thinking of you till it hurts

I know you hurt too, but what else can we do?

Tormented and torn apart



I wish I could carry your smile in my heart

For times when my life seems so low

It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring

When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know



I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right, believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you?

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong



I want you to come back and carry me home

Away from these long lonely nights

I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too?

Does the feeling seem oh so right?



What would you say, if I called on you now

Saying that I can't hold on

There's no easy way, it gets harder each day

Please love me or I'll be gone... I'll be gone





I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right, believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you?

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong



What are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?

What are you thinking of?



I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you?

I cna't be too late, I know I was so wrong



I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you?

I can't be too late, I know I was so wrong



I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you

I know you were right, believing for so long

I'm all out of love, what am I without you

I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

5/29

腦子一質胡思亂想
覺得自己遊走在地獄的邊緣
除了喝酒的那段時間外
只感到無限的空虛

2012年5月27日 星期日

5/28

每天都要花200元在喝酒上面
以後乾脆三餐都不吃喝酒就好

謊言

我一直欺騙朋友和家人我過得很好
但其實那都是謊言
我不知道該怎麼開心
也不知道該怎麼說出實話


2012年5月25日 星期五

2012年5月23日 星期三

2012年5月14日 星期一

2012年5月13日 星期日

5/14

失敗的大學四年
這輩子沒有這麼不想參加畢業典禮過
只想要趕快離開這傷心的地方

5/13

幾乎每天都跟曾昊葳出去酗酒
不知道這種日子還要過多久
不過一口氣喝一罐600毫升的玻璃瓶的台啤還滿爽的

2012年5月11日 星期五

5/11

我沒有任何的怨恨
我知道妳辛苦和努力
希望妳能完成妳夢想和目標


2012年5月2日 星期三

5/3

看到妳以前傳給我的照片
妳問我妳漂不漂亮
我總是答非所問
我想說
妳很漂亮
對不起
我又哭了

5/2

看著妳每天這麼忙這麼累
我不知道該不該去關心妳

以前我總是很自私
總是說我要念書
每當我讀書讀到很晚時
我就打電話給妳說我肚子餓要妳煮消夜給我吃
我總以為你會這樣一直等待我
總是承諾妳之後有空會帶妳出去玩

也許短時間內很難忘記要去關心妳
每次經過我們曾經待過的地方
就會想起以前的日子

現在這些都是回憶
也許永遠不可能再回來

生命是由許多極短的珍貴片段所集合而成
而這些片段中間的接合處
是由那些無法忘記的傷痛所黏起來的

但是必須振作起來
故事才能繼續寫下去

2012年5月1日 星期二

質數的孤獨

孿生質數
如此相近卻永遠被分隔的兩個數
我本以為這些永遠不可能發生
但現在發生在我身上
那樣比較孤獨?
是活在各自的世界 誰也不愛
還是心裡愛著一個人 卻始終無法靠近



故事的結局

2009/9/27 至 2012/5/1

我不是個稱職的男友
我總是再給自己找藉口說課業很忙沒空陪妳出去玩
我總是只在乎自己的事情
妳要到韓國交換學生時我卻連一點關心都沒有

我自以為這故事會一直寫下去
漫不經心的做著自己想做的事
沒想到這一切來的這麼突然

妳有新手機都沒跟我講
我想妳已經厭倦我了

竟然有人可以失敗到連原本最親近的人都厭倦
我不知道有哪些給妳的回憶是快樂的

我相信妳做了對你自己最好的選擇
也希望妳未來的新生活能夠快樂