Taylor Swift The Lucky One

New to town with,
A made up name,
In the Angel's City,
Chasing fortune and fame.
And the camera flashes,
Make it look like a dream.

You had it figured out,
Since you were in school,
Everybody loves pretty,
Everybody loves cool.
So overnight you look like,
A sixties' queen.

Another name goes up in lights,
Like diamonds in the sky.

And they'll tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
Yeah, they tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
But can you tell me now,
You're the lucky one?
Oh, oh, oh-oh.

Now it's big black cars,
And Riviera views,
And your lover in the foyer,
Doesn't even know you,
And your secrets end up,
Splashed on the news front page.

And they tell you that you're lucky.
But you're so confused,
'Cause you don't feel pretty,
You just feel used.
And all the young things,
Line up to take your place.

Another name,
Goes up in lights,
You wonder if you'll,
Make it out alive.

And they'll tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
Yeah, they tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
But can you tell me now,
You're the lucky one?
Oh, oh, oh-oh, oh, oh.
Oh, oh, oh-oh, oh.

It was a few years later,
I showed up here.
And they still tell the legend,
Of how you disappeared,
How you took the money and,
Your dignity and,
Got the hell out.

They say you bought a,
Bunch of land somewhere,
Chose the Rose Garden,
Over Madison Square,
And it took some time,
But I understand it now.

'Cause now my name,
Is up in lights,
But I think you,
Got it right,

Let me tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
Let me tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
Let me tell you now,
You're the lucky one,
Oh, oh, oh.

Yeah, they'll tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
Yeah, they'll tell you now,
You're the lucky one.
But can you tell me now,
You're the lucky one?
Oh, oh, oh-oh, oh.

Oh, oh-oh, oh.

2013/6/12

已經連續熬夜三天了
但是當昨天發現在cp vialation後seudo scalar 和scalar會混在一起後
讓我興奮的睡不著
今天終於得到一個似乎正確的理論
等明天老師看過之後再做結論吧

spontaneously CP violation

該死的SCPV
怎麼算都算不出來
我快瘋了

大雨

看著電腦裡滿坑滿谷的計算
想起去年同樣是在畢業季的我
認識的學弟妹今年也要畢業了
從照片中看不出內心是喜還是憂
因為同樣去年的我在這時拍照表面上歡笑
但畢業那天大概是我目前為止最不快樂的一天
失敗並不能重來

那天的下午台北下著大雨
今晚只有mathematica和讓人血尿的計算陪著我
依然下著大雨
在中壢的日子 

2013.5.22

已經過了一年
不像故事中的主角
要做的只是選怎一條路
但我只是故事中的一個配角
只能隨著世界載浮載沉
努力地往前游
但是否能靠岸卻不是由你決定

規範

從高中開始
就夢想自己能夠看得懂馬克斯威爾方程

從大學開始
就夢想自己有一天能夠理解費曼圖

從小時候就夢想
自己有一天能夠親手彈奏蕭邦的Op. 55, No. 1

離費曼圖就只差這麼一步了
 

好久不見 快樂

最近不知道為什麼一直睡不好
每天都非常勞累
感覺又快感冒了
昨天斷斷續續醒來直到早上八點
然後突然覺得很想睡
繼續睡下去就做了一個夢
夢到我在山間的道路上
道路旁噴著山泉水
小朋友們開心的唱著歌
而我接到以前基服帶的國小小朋友打來的電話
要我回去看他們
我笑著跟他們說
我現在在帶其他小朋友
不過之後有空一定會回去
這時所有在路旁王著的小朋友一起開心齊唱
我心裡面感到非常開心
似乎很久很久沒在這麼開心過了
好像找回忘記很久的笑容

醒來之後
回想起當初離開基服回去南友接總籌
就覺得後悔不已
自以為自己有能耐改變一切
那時就天真地一直告訴自己沒有行不行只有想不想
最後什麼事情都沒完成還落得兩頭空
只剩下在夢裡可以感到開心
 
但至少
曾經有那麼一剎那
我真的以為我找回了那許久不見的喜樂